A new year

Rosh Hashana 5775. It's quiet here, the calm before the storm. I have spent the last two days cooking my typical Jewish new year dishes, brisket, chicken soup, kasha with bow ties, and a noodle pudding. In 1/2 hour my house will be filled to the brim with good friends and relatives. I am missing my daughter like crazy, and my mom will stay in Philadelphia with my brother so there will be a few holes around the table. But all in all, most of my family, and some close friends will usher in the new year in style. Apples and honey grace our table and bottles of wine are waiting to be opened.
The next ten days between the new year and the day of atonement are a chance for me to reflect, to pause, to ask forgiveness for all the bad things I have done, and to think about the coming year.
As usual, I have lots of people to ask forgiveness of. Each year it seems like there are more and more- but I think that is because I am more aware of my failings and flaws. I love this time period because it makes me stop and think before I bad mouth someone, yell at my family, become envious of others. And while it may only be ten days, I end up feeling cleansed. It is a good feeling.
The coming year will bring big changes, probably as big as when I had my babies. A huge shift in schedules, responsibilities, and priorities. I am going to have to keep the next ten days in mind, so I enter this period of my life with more wisdom, less rash behavior, more thought, and less self doubt and jealousy. These are good goals, hard ones for me, but something to aim for in this year of change.